MOVED.

raudahrevealed something at 9:12 PM

[bitchyrant]
I know this isn't any of my business , but really I am getting extremely irritated with all those posts that says "I'm not in the mood for raya..." "this year raya no feeeling."

I've been reading this in like 90318312908312903193 blogs and I know it isnt any of my business to comment. BUT seriously , WHATEVER GUYS. Don't be such a brat! You have a family , you have baju raya , you have a home , you get duit raya , you get to eat ketupat rendang on your first day , your houses are beautiful. No mood? KAHWIN KAN KORANG NGAN DATUK K BARU TAU. tak bersyukur.

And all these posts sound like this.

I'm in no mood for raya this year. BUT HEYYYYYYYY , i'm STILL posting pictures of my pretty self in awesome raya clothes , with my family and my kuih raya and everything. Now , I know i look very happy in these pictures. But really, its all just an act.I just dont feel it this year.

You should just go give all your baju rayas, duit rayas ,pretty homes to all those people who cant afford it and will appreciate it.

All these teenagers ahh. Sometimes when parents restrict them , or when they have hwk to do , they say they want to ENJOY THEIR LIFE.
But what i realise is , TEENAGERS nowadays have all the things that they CAN enjoy. But they just refuse to do so.

BRATS.

Okay i've typed my say. So for all those that disagreee.

Your whiny non-unappreciative crybaby opinion would be.....?

[/bitchyrant]

Raya is awesome for me every year despite the tears and everything (long story). GOTTA LOVE WHAT YOU HAVE.

Anyhows , Puteri Gunung Ledang is a beautiful movie if you're watching it for the 3rd or 4th time and understand the concept of the movie. So yes , watching the movie on suria today was entertaining. Although i wanted to punch the screen during the final 30 minutes of the movie.

See the story goes like this , the sultan cursed the princess that anyone that sees her after the following dawn break will die a horrible death , hence she will live alone on top on mount ledang forever. So .. the princess goes back to the moutain like a good girl awaiting her lover.

Her lover , Mr Hang Tuah here , was still out in bloody nowhere. Prime minister and his gang goes up to meet him. A normal person would have said to Hang Tuah , " OI GET YOUR ASS TO GUNUNG LEDANG RIGHT NOW ! NOW NOW NOW!!" . But the prime minister is not a normal person.

Instead , he brings Hang tuah to some random wooden hut. I have no idea where the hut came from or who built it. But yarr..

Okay , whatever makes him happy. I dont mind. But we're running short of time here , so please make the explaination fast. But does he listen... NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. Instead he talked about fate , love , sultan melaka , his grandfather , his postman.Then at long last he asks Hang Tuah to "GO! go to gunung ledang"

Now any audience who is as rational as me would have been like "its about time , NOW GO! RUN RUN RUN!" But alas , Hang Tuah doesn't go. He gives a sniff first .. then helds out his hand. Then hugs the prime minister for a gazillion years. I was like.

DUDE, YOU HAVE A MOUNTAIN TO FREAKING CLIMB!

So after the oh-so-unneccessary hug , Hang Tuah finally runs. Run through forests , to the waterfall , through the semak samun , through the everything.

Hang Tuah has a really awesome stamina.

I was sad at the ending and all that. But it truly would not have happened if Hang Tuah had run at an earlier time.

raudahrevealed something at 4:47 AM

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Liyana told me Nadia called her 3 nights ago laughing her ass off. Why?

Because Nadia called me while I was sleeping the other night and if you guys didnt know already I am not myself when I'm sleeping. So needless to say I spoke to her to a topic entirely irrelevant to what she was saying. According to nadia , when she asked me ,

Her: Sok mass takbir kol braper?
Me: Uhhh.. Air oren belom sampai.

I didnt even remember Nadia calling me.I remembered Shairah and Ashraff calling me on the same night though. And I'm sorry if my mumblings sounded incoherent. But seriously , you DONT want to hear me when I just woke up.

Hoho.

On another note ,aftermath of the bunga api and mercun playing on the field in front of ghufran made me welcome raya in high spirits. There's nothing more satisfying than to blow things up and watch sparkly shiny things fly up to the sky.

and to hear Zikry shout "TERBAKARRR... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! TERBAKARRR!!! AHHHH!!! TERBAKAR TERBAKAR!!" like a woman when they accidentally set the "trespassers beware" signage on fire.

Me and Liyana couldnt stop laughing. HAAHHAHAHA.

Went to sembahyang raya and nothing sounds more calming than hearing the takbir over and over again and watching the amount of people going to the mosque. It was A LOT i tell you. A much better sight to watch rather than the old kroogers that unshamedly eat and drink at the hawker centres during ramadhan.Dah tua kutuk pon tak nak insaf.

And all these mats , minahs ,pakciks who complain kita stare stare pat dorang bila dorang tak puasa.

Oh i'm SORRYY , were you supposed to be invisible?

Fatayaats jalan raya is on the 11th. And those people that I expected to disagree with the idea of jalaning raya without the boys did disagree (While others are overjoyed of a girls outing).

Okay lorrr.. After you think of how to fit about 70 over people in an SBS bus and to keep boy-girl mixing under control outside the mosque and to think of how to fit everyone's houses in one day , then you set up date and plan.

If can I also want (HELLOO , i would get to see him in baju kurung. Mesti hensem giler) .

Aiyohh but tak kluar ngan laki tak mati kan. and dont worry lah , mesti ada fityan outing as a whole , cuma tinggal orang nak plan jer.

Anyway , Selamat Hari Raya Semua!!

::sometimes I feel broke inside, but i wont admit:

raudahrevealed something at 5:47 AM

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

i think im going on hiatus until end of ramadhan.

i think.

raudahrevealed something at 10:21 PM

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Ghufran's office under the hands of ruthlessly messy youths.

And boys , we would really appreciate it if you dont hide the girls' shoes and put cucumbers in them.

raudahrevealed something at 10:28 AM

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

Decided to remove the song because .. Emo is SOOO not my thing.

I'm fine by the way.

Anyway ,today I found out that it is much better to do my terawih prayers under the fan than under the air-conditioner. Though ,they do say that air-conditioners makes an environment conducive.

Yes, conducive enough to SLEEP!

raudahrevealed something at 9:27 AM

Sunday, October 08, 2006

Duhai bonda duhai ayahanda
Dengarlah rayuan anakanda
Yang jauh di mata

Tanpa ku sedari airmata ku mengalir
Terdengar ayat suci seruan takbir
Betapa daku gembira dekat di samping keluarga
Di pagi mulia hari raya

Kan ku sujud di kakimu bila kita bertemu
Kan ku cium tangan mu ku pohon restu
Oh maafkan daku kesalahan diri ku

Walau jauh di mata namun kau tak dapat ku lupa
Doa ku sepanjang masa agar kau bahagia
Ku pohon restu dari mu oh ayah dan ibu
Agar tercapai cita ku membela nasib mu

Kesalahan diri ku...

I wanted to bold some lines of the song to highlight the ones that exactly tells what im feeling. Then I realised i bolded the whole song.

A million tears I can cry and it still wouldnt make a difference.
and that made me cry even more.

Oh dont mind me. I'm always emo like this, towards hari raya.

I have feelings too you know

raudahrevealed something at 9:12 AM

Friday, October 06, 2006

I just had a really really stressful day. Was close to tears most of the time and that's really saying a lot ohkayyyyy. Given the fact that i almost always never cry in times of crisis . Furthermore a certain "F" word keeps popping up in my mind . Which is again, saying a lot because I'm not really a swearing person in real life.In fact I cant even remember the last time I swore , except for a few entries back which wasnt really swearing if you think abt it.

One of the many reasons why today sucked was that I woke up late for an afternoon class. Woke up at 2.30pm. I admit , Im not exactly a morning person. BUT 2.30 PM ?!?! Some anak dara i am.

I totally panicked because i my assignment was incomplete and today was the deadline . No assignment , no grades equals to sucky gpa AGAIN. And worse of all , the day before ,I stupidly gave away my last 10 dollars on a random stranger who had no money to go home , so I had no money to get a cab just now. I can see liyana shaking her head right now.

But really LIYANA, it was late at night and she seemed really nice and I had no small change. So I gave her the 10 bucks.

So anyway my first idea was to call Nassier. Since he has a motor ,he can send me money for a taxi ride. Then i found out he was still at camp.He suggested that I asked money from my mother.

.....

OH WOW , why didnt i think of that....

Oh wait , now I remember why.

I DONT LIVE WITH HER ANYMORE.

Hahah.So yar ,a hell lot of trouble i went through just to get to school. So life taught me two lessons today

"Raudah , you can be generous and nice. But for god's sake , be generous and nice with your brains"

and

"Use alarm clocks at all times"

However I met up with the very much loved TEMASEK CLIQUE and chatted with Nassier on the phone (even though we actually promised that we wont talk on e phone during ramadhan. *Feels guilty*) , so the day wasnt all that bad.

Though if anyone wants to give me a big comforting hug , you're free to do so.

raudahrevealed something at 11:06 AM