MOVED.

raudahrevealed something at 12:21 AM

Friday, April 29, 2005

I almost died the other day. in a car accident. I swear , one more second , I would really have died. and it totally freaked me out. I seriously could have died! I mean , everyone will die when the time comes .but at 15 , there's so much that I still wanna do. like falling in love , make a lot of money , hug my mother , *cough* kill your enemy *cough* , do your o'levels (then again....) etc etc. So yeah , what really happened was that I was crossing the road , preoccupied in my own thoughts . and this car was honking at me.

HONKING!

it wasn't even breaking. I mean you know , some drivers actually used the brake and also the horn. but this car showed no signs of it. and thank god i snapped out of my thoughts just in time.when I told about the incident (that almost turned out to be an accident) to shaiful he replied "Raudah. Concentrate on ur surroundings and stop thinking of me"

Boys.

So moral of story , I wont live forever (so if you wanna say you love me , say it now!). I would have died , i didn't but i still will die . It can be tommorow , tonight , next year . You will die too.

this is depressing.

raudahrevealed something at 11:34 PM

Saturday, April 23, 2005

You know you have something to worry about when you go to your family computer and find this site in the favourites. A muslim dating site! and its also worrying that the only people using the computer is well..

your 14 year old brother

speaking of jokes , did you watch muzika extravaganza on suria just now? Well you know there was this indian minister (someone said he was malay though) in the bowtie. He went up the stage at the end of the concert. yeah that guy. My brother saw him and went "S.R Nathan?"

and they tell me , he's my brother. sheesh.

anyway , tommorow I'll be at the maulid at Ghufran helping out .with .. well , with the fityah group. Gawd I can't believe , i survived joining fityah alone. Bloody hidayah , signed up but never attend any single event , leaving me all alone. but the girls were really friendly and the boys .. are phew hot! I've never talked to them before though.

im a really shy girl.

heheh.anyway one of the girls said that when i dont wear selendang , I look evil. Im serious! those were her exact words. I've never been so insulted my whole life. This innocent face , evil?

never!

but i didnt say that of course. She only saw me without my scarf through my pics in friendster. pictures can only show so much innocence. Umm yeah . Anyway I really hope hidayah would come down tommorow .

Anyway I would like to take this opportunity to advertise my fityan (or wassit spelt as fityah ) group. Its a volunteer group at the mosque , and we do really cool stuff like , picking on each other noses and stuffs.

JOKING.

i wonder where that came from. anyway what i meant was , we're basically a bunch of teenagers in a group. and events are held almost every week. Though I must say the only thing that im active in is the netball practices. Yeah , netball is so fun! It felt a bit weird at first because i've never played netball in a full muslimah gear before. you know with the long sleeve shirt and long pants. with scarf. Like we're always down to our shorts and tshirts for pe. but like a true temasekian i showed resilience, determination , a carin-

whatever . my point is , I doubt hidayah will come tommorow or even attend any other event that will take place. so I WANT SOME company! Dont get me wrong , i love the company of those girls from fityan but they're madrasah people , all nice and proper. and im.. an evil looking girl (but i assure you , my heart is pure.. umm yeah) and they're always talking about what happens in their school , and im like lost.

still luff em anyway . which is why , im still going tommorow with or without hidayah. my only problem is that , im supposed to be there at 8.45 am. which means , i have to wake up at about 7! but shidah told me she's going to sms me tommorow morning so i'll wake.im not sure why she thinks that sms-ing me will help , i would just try to press the snooze button. which of course , doesnt exist in the case.

two long entries in a day. shows u how much effort i am putting in to procastinate studying.

raudahrevealed something at 8:53 AM

Friday, April 22, 2005

Tennis session with fitri , shaiful and farhan had been predictably fun. except for the fact that I was the only one who got injuries by the end of the day! First was of course , fitri who send the tennis ball hard at my butt. Man , I dont know how he could not have seen me there . I was right in front of him , innocently tying my stupidly annoying hair and then bam! And instead of asking me if I was alright , shaiful and farhan burst out laughing. They were laughing so hard , they were sitting on the floor. So not helping. Okay so if it hit farhan's butt instead I would laugh out loud too.still. i can't help being victimised here!

anyway , that wasn't the only injury I had. Farhan sent a really fast and hard ball at my thigh. And he has a really good smash , whatever you call it. So yeah , it hurt a lot! But this time , they all didn't laugh that much . and at least farhan had the decency to come to my side and ask how I was (unlike fitri). at least it wasn't my butt. And at least it was my thigh.

not somewhere else.

It very nearly did.

So yeah , I was of course milking it for all its worth , screaming that i was in pain and agony. Which actually i wasn't really. It was painful at first , but i was exagerating when i said it was still painful as hell to walk when we finished the game. So i told farhan that he had to now blanja me coffee bean for paralysing me. But instead we went to Macdonalds and I got a free meal. Fitri got a coupon for two free meals or something for his birthday because he worked there.

Throughout the whole meal , fitri was insisting I close my ears when they were telling dirty jokes. Because I wasn't matured enough. he said I wasn't yet fifteen , so therefore I should be instead be at home watching barney. Which of course , I still do because Iman and Nabil watches barney all the time so therefore I leave me to no choice. Anyway I was still complaining my leg was cold , which I always get whenever I do strenous sports without stretching but I told farhan it was because of the ball he smacked to my thigh. so fitri was making this dirty joke about if balls made me cold , what about sticks. That much I heard.

Oh cool! MATURED JOKES!
*rolls eyes*

we went out of the mac at about 10+ and we decided to take the longer bus ride home. I didnt know it was 10 then , I thought it was still 9 something.and did you know that there is a lot of bats in tampines! Lol , I totally freaked out , i was almost clinging to shaiful.

I said almost. so before all of you out there who had any silly ideas because I have two pictures of me and shaiful and me for this current layout. We're just friends , I swear . The two pictures was acted on impulse when I saw a blank empty space. anyway if I put two pictures of me and taufik batisah together in my next layout would you guys think we're together?

please say yes.

back to the story , Farhan was a bit hyper.He was flashing the drivers on the road. I couldn't stop laughing. Okay so it wasn't really flashing. He just opened his jacket at the drivers and he was wearing something inside. And he was mimicking all the "you got served" dance steps . weirdo.

so I reached home at about 11.30 which by then everyone was already asleep. I intended to study but it was so dark outside my room , I was a bit scared , so I slept with my pillow over my head.You know , Im sucha coward!

raudahrevealed something at 8:16 PM

Friday, April 15, 2005

I told you i was addicted to making layouts. haha. anyway Im not sure how long this will stay up. prolly a week. I love my friends faces (and mine as well) but i think the colours are a bit off. and shida prolly misses black already. I was getting sick of using black all the time , its kind of depressing. Anyway have fun watching all our faces and in case any blog hoppers see us (or me) on the streets yeah you're welcome to go "OMG! I KNOW THEM!" and while you're at it , you can give us flowers , chocolates , and all that. and if you're lucky we'd sign autographs.

heh , dont mind me . Just me and my harmless fantasies. Fantasy that people actually like reading my blog. and my craps. and my blends. and my fantasies. so yeah.

You know why I totally hate it when I have to wear make-up. Its because I dont know how. So I ask someone else to do them for me. Like the other day when we had to put on make-up for syf. So when I do ask someone , i get all my flaws pointed out. Like the difficulty people have putting eyeliner , "you know what your problem is , your eyes are too small" . That I can handle though because Nafisah was the one who said that , and I luff her to bits ,so i can't possibly stay mad. Besides , my eyes really are small. But my eyes wasn't the only victim of criticism. Miss rajah grumpily told me my lips were small. Well I know Im no angelina jolie , but my lips are not THATTT smaaaaaaaaaalll!! and being told this by Miss Rajah , just well..

SUCKS!

As if that's not enough , she pushed my neck up till it almost cracked. Asked me to stretch my lips and there i was stretching my lips as much as i can. and she goes ," STRETCH FURTHER. FURTHER" like oh sorry , Im sorry , i forgot how its like to have lips made like a rubber band! urgh! I swear , it hurts , my neck was hurting like i did 500 crunches and here was the teacher saying "This is the problem with you people with small lips ." the way she said "you people" like we're some sort of weird species.

bleah.

raudahrevealed something at 10:10 PM

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Its just bloody ironic that after all that shit , you're talking about religion. Like hey .. look at yourself before you say anything else. Its also ironic that you had to say "stop swearing" . Oh well , sure , after you dissed so badly you expected me to go "Roses are red , violets are blue , sugar is sweet and so are you" . Go to hell . You should know the more you ask me to stop swearing the more I will fucking swear just to piss you the hell off. The more you ask me to stop the more I want to show you that I dont want to listen to you and the more vulgar I wanna be. So

In fucking conclusion , I fucking hate you , you fucking bastard . Hear me fucking swear.

raudahrevealed something at 6:24 AM

Friday, April 08, 2005

Hot news: Qazim's and Wani's teddy bears are sexually attracted to each other. They were having hot kinky sex during maths class.Whooots! go teddies! Maths class some more. Well , they didn't seem to have that much fun. Wani and Qazim was though. They were the one controlling the bears.

Didn't know they had it in them. *Shakes head* Anyway I wasn't really paying attention. I was listening to the teacher.

Sort of.

abt 2 hours more before shida turns 16. Yay everyone's growing up!

((Why did you even bother saying sorry?))

raudahrevealed something at 7:05 AM

Saturday, April 02, 2005

This whole situation is seriously screwing with my mind. I can't even study , even if I used all the discipline I have in me (though that's not really saying much).

Anyway new layout.

to suit my emotional mood.

Im sucha baby.

raudahrevealed something at 9:14 PM

Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you
Happy birrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrddayy toooooooooooooooooooo FATIN!
happy birdday to you!

great , now u can watch nc 16 movies and I can't. You will wait for me wont you. right? no?

NO?!

*sighs* I miss Shaiful already ... SHAIFUL!! COME BACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!

raudahrevealed something at 6:21 AM